Ok, I usually don't make posts solely highlighting what edits I make to my site, but I'm just really proud of this one! If you wait about 20 seconds on any page on my site, something cool happens!!!!!

Check it out: https://johnmaduin.neocities.org/

(EDIT 04-02-2025: After 20 seconds, the website would redirect to a Rickroll. April fools! 😭 This has now been removed. For anyone who experienced this, I hope it amused you! 😁)

Surgery went as well as it could've and I am making a full recovery quickly!

Ok basically, it was a ginormous ovarian cyst, about 10 x 9 x 11 inches. Before the operation, I weighed about 108lbs, and after the operation, I weighed 100lbs, meaning that if the scales at the hospital were both accurate, the cyst was about 8lbs. It was crushing my intestines into a small corner of my abdomen, and flattening and bending my bladder and uterus slightly outward in a weird way. It had also just started to crush one of my kidneys, which would not have been good. We already knew all that, I just don't like publicly sharing details of situations until they are over. It unfortunately was not one of the cool cysts that have teeth and hair and whatnot. It was a chocolate cyst, which means that I likely have undiagnosed endometriosis. This does not surprise me in the slightest. I also had to lose one of my ovaries and a fallopian tube, which I'm not really broken up about as I care not for my fertility. I am left with a really cool looking vertical scar on my abdomen, and, funnily enough, I've been glued back together. Post-op, I feel like I have a new lease on life. My organs have so much more room to breathe. My body looks like how it's supposed to instead of like a pale cartoonish mockery of a human being. My belly button no longer looks scary and purple. And I don't get hot flashes anymore! But it's gonna take a bit of getting used to how my body's supposed to work, because to say the least, my body worked very strangely when the cyst was in it. Well, now I can have my life back!

How did it get this bad in the first place though? There's really no one else to blame for this but my parents. I've had symptoms of endometriosis for years, with excruciatingly painful periods that started in high school. In Ohio, you can't seek medical care as a minor without your parents' permission, and my parents did not want to get me care for this when it started being a problem.

Yeah, I guess I could've gotten treatment for this at age 18, or 19, when it got bigger, but I was unable to trust people enough to treat me at that time due to what I had been through. Also, despite knowing about endometriosis, I did not know about chocolate cysts (let alone that they could become life-threatening if they got as big as mine; to be fair, they usually don't get THIS big, though). I also did not have much experience with navigating the medical establishment (the last time I had been to the doctor was when I was 16 to get diagnosed with autism; before that, I had only been to the doctor to get vaccinated and did not get checkups). I was concerned that my symptoms would be written off like my parents wrote them off, rather than treated. I didn't want to get charged for the services even without getting treatment.

Unfortunately, I asked the doctor who removed the cyst, and there is no way to medically determine how old a cyst is. My parents neglected me to the point I needed a major abdominal surgery, and they are likely going to get away with that, too, because it would be their word against mine. This entire situation could've been prevented if it wasn't for parent's rights being valued over a child's right to life and limb by the law. The laws of this country are the main problem enabling people like that to harm children, but I digress.

That situation isn't ALL drab, though. I am low contact with my mom and no contact with my dad since 2022. They don't deserve to be anywhere near me. I am living a happy life with a few loving partners, a great job that I absolutely adore, an ebike, choices, autonomy, money, healthcare, a bright future, a strong support system, enough healthy vegan food, and a safe place to live. My mom text messaged me because she heard from my grandma that I was getting a surgery. I asked her how her and my brothers are doing, and she ghosted me. 😭 She ghosts me every time I ask this question, because she doesn't like when I leave my dad out of our messages. That's why I keep asking her that. I want both my parents to know that I won, and thus, if they want to communicate with me, they need to do things on my terms. Also, it's funny. We do a little trollin! 😎

April is both my birth month and National Child Abuse Prevention Month. I am planning to make a post on my website with things that can help abuse victims, from my own experience. I will also be updating my website to make it have all sorts of cool stuff, as well! I've already added some new things, but nothing super crazy. And maybe I can release Silent during the month of April as well, but we'll see about that. I mean, I did just get cut open, maybe I should be taking it easy, even though I do heal pretty quickly and have a high pain tolerance.

Thanks for reading, and sticking around! You have a wonderful day/night, see ya around! 😁

- John Maduin

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TLDR: Surgery success! Recovery going good. It was a chocolate cyst and I likely have endometriosis. Also, I am living a great life without my stupid parents, whose medical neglect of me is likely the reason I needed such an invasive surgery in the first place. April is both my birth month and National Child Abuse Prevention Month, so I will be making a resource on my website for abuse victims. I will also be making my website very cool and fun. Already edited it a little bit, but nothing too crazy! Silent during April, maybe? Dunno, we'll see! Thanks for sticking around, have a nice day/night! 😁

Apologies for my radio silence on Newgrounds. Basically, I had to go to the ER late last month, and a few days in the future, I am getting a major abdominal surgery. It turns out that, for years, I have had something inside me that was not supposed to be there. This explains a lot, honestly. Doctors say it's probably not cancer, and from looking at the CAT scans, I don't think it's cancer either, but we can't just leave it be, because it is quite large and causing me discomfort. We need to do a biopsy to be 100% sure it's not cancerous. So, I need a surgery to remove it, then they will do a biopsy. I will be out of work for about 6 weeks after this procedure.

I'm frustrated because my life was comfortable for once, and then this happened. I got into a whole routine that made me happy, and it is now disrupted. It is also quite uncommon for this condition to be to this intensity, so I feel very alone. And my body looks so strange and scary with this thing in me that is trying to crush all my organs. This is quite senseless and I don't really see a silver lining here. But, I will be ok. I have insurance, great doctors, an excellent support system, and a great job I love that will not fire me for having to get a surgery. I'm just frustrated that this is even a problem at all. I want my life back.

I guess when I'm recovering from the surgery, I'll be able to work on Silent more? I don't know. This thing will still be out when it's out, at least be assured of that! I'm happy to be making this. I am also working on making my website more exciting to be on! Right now it's kind of a mess (as always) and the only accessible thing besides the main page is the ltsprogress page where I post sneak peeks of assets from the game. But you can kind of see what will be there in the future! I will be happy to share my new creations for the site with yall, and of course, the game, when it is finished!

(Also, I have an ebike now! I'm very happy about that, my joints feel so much better and I'm not overexerting myself doing basic errands anymore. 😁)

Thanks for hanging around, even with my extremely inconsistent posting. I appreciate yall! I will keep everyone updated on what's going on.

You have a wonderful day/night, see you around! 👋

- John Maduin

TLDR: Need major abdominal surgery, will be ok, probably not cancer but we will check. Am updating site to be very cool and awesome sometime in the future. LISA The Silent is still releasing eventually. Have a great day/night, thank you for sticking around!

LISA The Silent will now be out when it's out. Probably sometime in 2025 is when you can expect it.

I'm sorry I didn't update earlier, I have been kind of put through the wringer. My new-ish job has been taking a lot more out of me than it probably should. It is actively and literally tearing my body apart (especially my muscles and joints) and it is quite stressful on me mentally. That's not even mentioning my 5 million side hustles lol. I really need to focus on making enough money right now rather than passion projects, and on top of all that, I have been trying to work through some interpersonal issues in my life. Despite this all, I'm doing all right! I think I just need to calm down a bit and take it easy.

After the New Year, I'm going to revamp my website johnmaduin.neocities.org with hella cool new stuff that you're not really expecting. There will be a section of the site where I will start posting stuff from the game that isn't spoilers from time to time.

Here's a sneak peek of some character sprites from the game.

Here are some battle backgrounds. I took and edited all of these pictures, and they have interesting stories behind them! In game, they are more abstractly related to the battles rather than to be taken literal.

I don't usually like sharing assets from unfinished projects, as a lot of my creative choices do not make much sense out of context, and things are always subject to change. But I feel like in this situation, it would be good for me to share pieces of this game.

If you have feedback, constructive criticism, etc., feel free to let me know! I will also answer any questions people might have about the game, as long as they are not spoilers.

Thank you so so very much for your patience! Happy Holidays, Joyous Yule, Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year! 🌲

LISA: The Silent Areas 1 + 2 has been postponed AGAIN to November 30th, 2024. This is because of unexpected health problems. I also did not expect to have as many obligations outside of this game so soon. Be reassured that this game will come out regardless of what happens in my life or in society. (Also, I am perfectly fine mentally, my body just sucks.) Thank you for your understanding and patience! I promise you, it will be worth it, this game is something I will be very happy to show to people! I apologize if anyone is disappointed.

After the results from where I live, I recommend you donate to an abortion fund in need or a practical support organization! Also, here is some advice on things you can do right now if you also live here.

LISA: The Silent Areas 1 + 2 has been postponed to November 9th, 2024 at 3pm Eastern. This is due to unforeseen circumstances in my personal life. I want this game to be the best that it can be, and to do that, I need a bit more time. I will not postpone again, nor will I cancel anything. Thank you for your understanding, and have a Happy Halloween!

Read the announcement here!

Also, look at the LISA Digital Zine!

(Reposted because I forgot to link the zine. I'm sorry!)

I've been working on something. The first part will be released at that date and time.

I'm so excited I've come back from the dead to make more art!

I hath arrived on this platform to post arts. Check out my profile for some examples. Enjoy!